I know I've been M.I.A, but since school started, and ended, I've felt a bit off with myself.
To be honest, I nearly questioned myself and my dream that I've had since Grade 3 that I've stuck to until now.
No, I am still pushing forward to live this dream, but I still feel...off.
For one thing, I think I've lost my passion for photography.
I love photography, but I find myself dragged down at Conventions when I attempt to cosplay and be a photographer at the same time.
I find that despite the love I have for photography, I no longer wish to photograph cosplayers at conventions.
Another thing is my patience with writing.
As of lately, I've been getting chronic writers block that is just bumming me down with my roleplaying on Gaia.
I mean, this is besides the fact that I've lost two really amazing cosplayers who just up and left without another word.
And the fact that the two subjects I RPed with them I can't seem to RP again -- people keep leaving, and it makes it impossible to enjoy myself.
I mean, I'm struggling to get into the mindset of writing, which shouldn't be a hard thing for me...
...I almost wish I could go back in time to the days those few sacred RPers were around, and just continue where we left off.
But it's impossible now...one is MIA, the other is going through their own rough times that I can't help with.
I've just been so off lately....ugh....I want it to stop...I want to go back to a day where I wasn't so bummed out....